I must be a good actress, or is it that you're just too blind and only see what you're willing to believe? I love him, oh God I love him so much and when you decide to open your mouth only sharp words come out.That kind of sharpness cuts me too my core and stabs at the barrier I've grown over my heart, but you wouldn't know that,would you? I'm sure you just think I'm being stupid, or sick with teenagerism, after all, it's normal for my age, isn't it? But I know that what I feel aren't just hormones, I know that what I feel is strong enough to stand the distance and the cold, but I'm not sure it can withstand you.
Whenever I feel the pain in my chest from breathlessness, the lump in my throat that won't go down no matter how hard I swallow, that's when I'm about to cry, it's when I think of a white wall, so pure that no darkness can taint it and so thick that nothing that can hurt me can pass through. I think of this wall often, but sometimes it gets cracks...It's alright, I can keep it